Sat, Jan 14 - motivation

i think
a decision
is a response
to motivation
from inspiration and/or fear

stories
stories that we experience, see, hear, read
can make us
inspired
or
fearful
to the point
that we make a decision
and respond

which is why i am so passionate
about sharing
and hearing
real.life.stories

so today
in this post
i look back at my story (and photos)
over the past 4 years

i will never forget the day
i decided
i no longer wanted to be obese
because i was

obese is defined as having a Body Mass Index (BMI) >30

mine was 40

then one day

i came home from work

and my older 2 sons were so excited

nearly waiting for me to walk through the door

to give me a ripped off piece of paper

with a phone number on it

i didn't recognize the number

and then they told me

"we saw a weight-loss infomercial..."

[insert 2 excited sons now talking over each other]

[insert me no longer listening]

[insert me wanting to sink into a dark hole]

"...and YOU should call it right away!"

[insert long silent awkward pause in my kitchen]

i knew i had become obese

shopping told me that

always have been felt heavier than my friends and co-workers

had somewhat become content stuck with that as my forever norm

but for this mom

that suddenly

was no longer

an option

i was instantly motivated

out of

fear - that i was an embarrassment to my sons

and also

out of

inspiration - after watching many seasons of The Biggest Loser

to make a decision

my goal was

to be overweight

BMI in the 25.0-29.9 range

and 2.5 years later i did get to 29.3

my other goal was to run a 5k without walking at all

and i did

 

unfortunately
by 1/1/2012
i had decided
to let
my BMI
get back to 32.6
*OBESITY ALERT*
equals
renewed motivation
[see first post]

"...though no one can go back and make a brand new start
anyone can start right now and make a brand new ending..."

a leader i admire
once said
"if you think you can be successful by looking back,
try driving to work by looking only in your rearview mirror!
the reason to look back
is to
get courage from past accomplishments
and learn from mistakes
to allow you to move ahead."

it will be hard
to accomplish what i have decided

i-decide-well
tvz